If anyone was concerned. I am here. I have been grieving in private the passing away of my Sunshine Sadie Pants. She will always be in sunshine now. Sadie died the early part of September. Malcolm and I pretty much just closed down to grieve. I was sobbing all the time. Malcolm would look for Sadie inside and out. When Malcolm would sleep he would dream and cry in his sleep. I would pick him up and we cuddle. Our tears mixing. The silence has been deafening around here. Sadie was a talker, Malcolm listens and looks up at me with his loving dark eyes. During this past month, I have heard and felt Sadie at times. Though a couple of days ago, I got a peaceful feeling inside myself, Sadie told me that she was alright. That helped. We have our loving memories of Sadie and her time with her. Sadie lived 15 years plus a number of days. I was so fortunate to be able to have her company and love. I love her still so, so much. She was a big part of my life. Malcolm is even more my shadow. We will get through this, though I think of her everyday. I will see her someday, until then she is here in spirit. She was such a joy. I love you Sunshine Sadie Pants, my forever and ever friend.

So there you go, this is why I have been absent. It has taken every ounce of energy I have to just exist. I have been present in the moment, yet it has been so much sadness. So please don't feel sad for me and Malcolm. Just if you have a fur family member, give them your time and love forever. Peace.